Wednesday, November 18, 2009

ideas?

So, I am debating doing a dance for an event coming up in Decemeber (still in the works, so I don't want to ruin the surprise!) and I need some help narrowing down my list of songs. They're in order from my favorite to not so favorite, but what do ya'll think? Even if you've never danced, which songs resonate most with you???


Gentle Savior (David Phelps) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JsFNnJObieA

Daughter of the King (Donna Stuart) http://www.myspace.com/donnastuart

Completely (Ana Laura: from Facing the Giants Soundtrack) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dcYqKuRDttw


Your Name (Phillips, Craig, and Dean) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T2qm3eD4akM

It Might Be Hope (Sara Groves) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KRlOLZ0H4ck

Sunday, November 15, 2009

self-worth...

In my sport psychology book we've been studying self-concept as it relates to high risk sports and sensation-seeking athletes. I came across this quote in the middle of the chapter on self theory and found it thought provoking.


"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul.


And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.

So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure... that you really are strong,

And you really do have worth."
-Anonymous


Wow... that is sad. It's pretty defeatist. It's kind of like, I can't rely on anyone else to be there or think of me, so I must take care of myself first.

I choose to believe something else. That I may get hurt along the way and that people will let me me down without meaning to. But that God shows love, brings security, speaks promises, gives grace in defeat, is in control of tomorrow's plans, sends sunshine, brings me flowers, and I have worth because of who made me!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

un....

I found this picture on a blog called "I want to be lost among your thoughts" and loved it! Sometimes I feel that each person should wear a sign like this and just re-alert the rest of the world to the fact that we are human and are not supposed to have it all together!




Friday, November 6, 2009

finally!!!!

So, sitting here on my desk is a glorious large white envelope with my MercyShips application safely tucked inside. Tomorrow morning it will be walked to the post office on the North side of the A&M campus, weighed and metered, and then dropped into a tub of mail to be sorted and sent on its way...

Oh my gosh, I am so excited!!!!!!! This has been a several year process from realizing that God was laying the African people on my heart, finding out about MercyShips, having an entire summer without summer school (first time in 3 years!), and having my parents totally on board with it.

And then the process of filling out the extensive application, getting 2 letters of recommendation, and getting a complete medical exam. (and soon will come the wonderful rounds of vaccines and the process of getting a visa :P )

It's hard to believe that instead of sitting here reading the ship's blog, watching videos, and dreaming about being a part of MercyShips, next summer I might be off the coast of Sub Saharan Africa as a part of the world's largest non-governmental hospital ship! If I am accepted to go, I will be just housekeeping or kitchen staff, but that is OK. Until I graduate from physical therapy school and pass my licensing exam I won't be allowed to do anything hands-on, but I plan to spend most of my free afternoons in the therapy/prosthetic clinic!!!

Anyway, this is a somewhat random post--an unusual derivation from my typical blogs--but I just had to tell ya'll!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Slow Me Down

So, this year I'm not in Chara, the Christian dance company here at A&M. But I've been stalking the company's YouTube channel waiting for the video of their first piece of the school year. Ironic that the song is fast climbing to the top of my iTunes playlist. It's called "Slow Me Down" by Emmy Rossum, the girl who played Christine in Phantom of the Opera.

The video is the top one in the sidebar on the right. Or can be found here. The official music video can be found here.


Rushing and racing and running in circles
Moving so fast I'm forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
Getting nowhere
My head and my heart are colliding - chaotic
Pace of the world -- I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I've got it together
I'm falling apart
Save me
Somebody take my hand
And lead me

Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flies by
I need you to slow me down

Sometimes I fear that I might disappear
In the blur of fast-forward I falter again
Forgetting to breathe, I need to sleep
I'm getting nowhere
All that I've missed I see in the reflection
Passed me while I wasn't paying attention
Tired of rushing, racing and running
I'm falling apart
Tell me
Oh won't you take my hand
And lead me

Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flies by
I need you to slow me down

Just show me
I need you to slow me down
The noise of the world is getting me caught up
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it
Just need to breathe, somebody please
Slow me down



Friends...and God...



When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares. — Henri J.M. Nouwen (via kari-shma)


I came across this quote on another girl's blog called I Am Blessed, (P.S. I do not necessarily 100% endorse the blogs or sites I link to) and felt like passing it on.




I can't stand it when people try to solve your problems before they listen all the way through.
...and God says, "I can't wait to hear every little detail.
Talk as long as you need to. I'll still be here."

I can't stand it when friends jump in and make a to-do list for you based on their perception of what your prioroties are.
...and God says, "Spend time in My Word and I'll help you
get refocused on My priorities."

I can't stand it when guys cannot contain their "problem-solving, damsel-in-distress rescuing" mindset.
...and God says, "Let Me walk alongside you and carry
you through."

I can't stand it when people don't cut you any slack, but demand it for themselves.
...and God says, "Cut it out. Get real with Me. Let's deal
with the excuses you keep making."

I can't stand it when friends take what you say at face value and don't realize that you're not yourself.
...and God says, "I will never leave you or forsake you
and nothing you say, do, or think will make Me love
you any less."

I can't stand it when friends pretend nothing's wrong and hope you'll snap out of it.
...and God says, "I love you too much to let you go on like
this. I'm stepping in to pull you out because you can't
even move you're so stuck."

I can't stand it when friends assume you remember all the Bible verses you've always told them and don't remind you of the verses.
...and God says, "I can't wait to show you again all the
promises that I've written to you! Open up your Bible
and let Me show you."

I can't stand it when friends say, "call me if you need to" but you know they really hope you won't.
...and God says, "I woke you up in the middle of the night
so that we could talk. I really want to spend some time
with you!"

I can't stand it when friends immediately try to relate with you and tell you all of their stories.
...and God says, "Let me hear your heart. And then let
Me show you how My heart breaks over you."

I can't stand it when friends don't give you a hug because they're afraid of getting in your space.
...and God says, "I don't care how much you try to push
Me out, I'm still going to be here.

I can't stand it when friends just say, "it'll be OK."
...and God says, "I will work things out for good. But in
the meantime here's an extra measure of My peace."